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[Jan. 26th, 2008|09:56 am] |
firstly,
me and hosanna will have the best matching tattoos ever...
secondly,
i really am excited about the new season of GLADIATORS. truly.
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[Jan. 24th, 2008|05:22 pm] |
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I’m being nostalgic and listening to The Sound of White by Missy Higgins. I’m looking at art by Kirsten Ferrel because her gratuitous imagery pretty much sums up how I feel right now. I’m thinking about spines and skin and cracks. And I think I’m being nervous and paranoid…I KNOW I am, but I’m not sure how else to be, I am still very new at this. I’m having an artificial escapist Parisian fantasy wearing the huge, black bling ring, soft colourful scarf and perfume my sister sent me from Paris. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2008|03:03 pm] |
today is a day of dropped/lost/forgotten things
i deferred my uni courses and took out my vertical nipple piercing.
both decisions were in my best interests.
but one made me kinda happy/relieved and the other made me sad/feel naked.
i want the pretty new bras/panties/stockings i brought yesterday but i left thema t hosannas
i want my sunnies but i left thema t the train station
i want lots of things.
like a job.
truly.
blahqawruohhhhhhhhhhhhhh |
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[Jan. 10th, 2008|01:29 pm] |
i'm in a...mood. not a bad mood, just a nothing-is-going-my-way mood.
my phone is being silly so i can't call the person i want to see today.
it's really hot and my nose started bleeding.
i shut my finger in a door.
maybe i should just go back to bed?
can't sleep becuse it's super hot and my tatts are in the OH MY GOD I'M SO ITCHY I WANT TO CHEW MY LEGS OFF TO STOP THE ITHCHING
stage.
i'd paint my nails but my male aprent is home to complain about the smell.
*sigh*
oh, and my mothers mad at me.
for something i see as not a real issue.
grrrrr.
but, im still not in a bad mood.
i just want SOMETHING to go right today.
anything?
anything at all?
maybe.................
at least.....i ahve a pink frypan? |
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[Jan. 1st, 2008|06:22 pm] |
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A woman made a man
A man he made a house
And when they lay together
Little creatures all come out
this year, started so perfect and shiny and new.
and i have never been more content with the person i am.
i feel.
i am.
elation.
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[Dec. 18th, 2007|12:36 pm] |
my year 12 results come out tomorrow.
yes, i am freaking the fuck out.
On a nicer note, i'm having my tattoos coloured friday. yay. |
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[Dec. 16th, 2007|06:28 pm] |
i am going to scrath the skin off my bones.
god my tattoos itch.
(my papaer journal is full of pictures, newspaper clippings and things i;ve found on the ground. i still can;t manage words.) |
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[Dec. 16th, 2007|08:53 am] |
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I’m lazy
I’m tired I feel completely disappointed in myself. I feel…mediocre. I never wanted to be average. I like my new hair a lot. i feel slightly angry at all the people who said I could achieve so much more if I tried, because clearly I tried and….became average. i feel filthy. god damn I’m in a bad mood. |
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[Dec. 14th, 2007|09:04 pm] |
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i took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart
i am
i am
i am. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2007|06:25 pm] |
so...
i have a place to live in melbourne, got into uni accomidation, now i just need to get into a course, should know in the next couple of weeks. god, i never throught i'd have to stress this hard again, only this time it's all totally out of my control.
thankfully i haven't started to look back and regret everything.
thankfully.
my tatts are doing fine and dandy.
sadly my home life could not be said to have the same fineness.
ironic that my accomidation offer came today.
feels like...shit. i can;t explain it. it just does. take my word for it.
on a more pleasant note...
tea parties are the best thing ever.
ever.
seriously.
just make a pot of chai in my nice big teapot, retro glass, honey, cupcakes, turkish delight, sit in the garden, indulge.
feels nice.
lay in the sun and read the unbearable lightness of being.
mmm, yes. being does feel unbearably light right now.
light
unbearably
light. |
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[Dec. 9th, 2007|10:27 am] |
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they're beautiful
and big.
bigger than you think :)
and
so
fucking
beautiful
i can't stop looking at myself.
i had my tattoos outlined yesterday.
big
thick
black
lines.
two huge stylised magnolias on my upper thighs/hips.
bit over A4.
didn;t take very long, maybe 45 minutes each side?
hurt....alot.
the fact that they don't hurt now lulls me into the idea that maybe it wasn;t that painful.
but it was so so so good.
apaprently i handle pain brilliantly.
i laughed.
but secretly i am very proud of how i handled it.
THEY
JUST
LOOK
SO
GOOD.
REALLY.
i am very very very exceptionally happy right now. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2007|06:28 pm] |
i hate it that i so willingly put up with this.
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[Nov. 22nd, 2007|10:37 am] |
things that make me happy:
new shiny shiny holes in face :)
 
i finally finally finished school. exams. graduated. all done. all over. lookin sexy.
it all makes me feel like this. happy. i LIKE being happy.
i have uni interveiws at 4:00 tomorrow in melbourne. these are veyr very importent and i'm rather terrified and excited.
finally, everythings working out.
finally.
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[Nov. 18th, 2007|01:51 pm] |
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a note to my body:
NO I AM NO GOING TO HAVE MY PERIOD SO STOP FUCKING GETTING ALL EMOTIONAL AND PMSY.
IT'S JUST NOT HAPPENING.
SO STOP IT.
NOW!
thankyou for being so understanding. i promise to have a bath and cover you with nice mouisteriser to help you cope with all this stress.
love from my brain.
i am so fucking tense its crazy. just can't relax, at all. i've been walking 45 minutes to an hour every day sicne school ended, the last two days ive walked for and hour and a half and i still can't exhaust myself enough to relax. now it's too hot to walk during the day so im going crazy here. study for an hour, stress for two. study some more.
fuck.
this really is just so silly.
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[Nov. 14th, 2007|09:00 pm] |
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dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads dreads
excited
excited
excited
excited
excited
excited
excited
excited
excited
excited
excited
excited
that is all.
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[Nov. 13th, 2007|09:58 am] |
well.
i've had a messy week.
and it's only tuesday.
turns out my interview for monash fine art is next thursday. FUCK. i thought i ahd so much more time than that.
turns out i didn't realise i needed to put in an extra application thingy for RMIT so i don't even get an interview for there, so if i dont get into monash, i have to stay here.
plus my male parent is.....beyond belief. just....it's just beyond me why he wold think it was ok to treat me like this, how he could ever even imagine that hes a good parent.
i despise him so utterly that the sight of him has begun to make me physically SICK.
really.
i don't care what it takes anymore, really.
i just need to get FUCK out of this house.
i just can't cope here anymore.
on a lighter note....
i'm getting dreads.
so much joy.
so so so much joy.
and i can get my tatts super soon.
begining with some lovely flowers to cover my scars.
oh yes.
so, the wonderful and the revolting dance hand in hand and i feel so nervouse about yme xams that it's like having a bad hangover and really bad PMS at the same time.
so there.
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[Nov. 8th, 2007|09:18 pm] |
because retail therapy alwaysworks.
and becuse my kitty is cute and only sleeps on my bed when i'm stressed. meow. sooo fuzzy.
and becuse there's something i'm really excited about. and can;t tell anyone.
it makes me feel special.
heheheee |
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[Nov. 6th, 2007|10:18 am] |
so i did my english exam.
it didn't feel good but that's okay becuse suzanne maintains the unfailing belief that i did perfectly, so i feel better.
i;ve been drinking ridiculus amounts of tea.
(it's okay, less caffine than coffe, so i can drink more!)
i have jap tomorrow.
possibly the exams im most scared about.
so
off
i
go
to study. (with tea) |
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